When first transitioning to college, last year, I was very nervous. Not about school, or being away from my family. I knew I could handle those. I was nervous about friends. How do I meet new people, will people like me? Everyone kept telling me that I was such an easy person to get along with that I would have no problem making friends. They were actually right. sort of. My new friends I found one day when i happened upon a game of four-square outside of my dorm. These people seemed really cool and accepted me right away into their little game. Eventually we were playing four-square every day together and even eating dinner together and hanging out too. Life was great. I had friends.
In high school I did not have very many friends, only about two or three whom I considered actual friends. And I barely even hung out with them outside of school. Needless to say I had no social life, so actually doing things outside of going to class and doing home work was a pretty new concept to me. Having these friends here at UT made me feel like I actually belonged to something, and I felt important. Unfortunately this feeling didn't last long. These "so-called" friends I had began ditching me, not inviting me to do things, and talking about me when I was not around. I began to spend all of my time alone in my room watching re-runs of CSI. I actually think I became depressed at this point in my life, which I was hoping never to be. My grades began to drop and I eventually earned a D in chemistry, although a few other factors went into that grade.
Luckily, I still had one friend who introduced me to this christian organization on campus, chi alpha (XA). there I met many new friends and eventually I slowly but surely began to feel better about myself and life in general. There I met some of the people who have become my best friends. I finally feel like I have found my place here, and I am glad that I have become closer with the Lord during this time. I praise him and thank him everyday for the people he has put into my life, because without them I do not know where I will be. I love you Rachel, Rachel, Rachel, and Danielle!!
